blue2pink Blog

just been in tears watching this.
://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3sZcyNktWAU

you need a smile this will do it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycmneu6BDWA

horrid out there,today and i didnt sleep well last night ,so feel a bit yuck this morning,also carnt find my glass's have an old pair so it realy hard writing this as it is a bit of a blur.
also feel like i would like a good cry ! is that a stupid thing to say?
my emotions are all overthe place .
guinea pig still not had babbies yet , and having eel for lunch.

i have just had my tea and i realy thought i was going to need to go to hospital , i was cutting with a largechopping knife when i dont know how i droped it, it stuck into my shoe!
i dont often wear shoes almost never, i looked down thinking the worst
but felt no pain, i took my shoe of and it had landed betwen my toes and stuck firmly into the sole of the shoe!

today has been a mile stone for me ,i was fully understanding about my gender and my sincere wish to change.
well today i have spent hours reading and waching vidio's
and the result !

i know in my heart i want this, and i am excited for the first time that
i will bemore than i had expected.
i know i can do this, because i know i have anwered my own questions honestly.

i walk forward carefully, and am so sure this is me.

well the good news is--------------- parcel force have written saying they have my parcel but!!!!!

i had to ring and pay customs £ 28 feel realy sad !!
so they will be arriving monday!

just so sorry for my male ,on his own so going to try taking him for walks

i wonder if you all consentratedy about my shoes comming if they would turn up today and put me out of my missery, cos i want to totter around in my first pair of heels.
Please please

dont realy know what to say, i am ok so dont worry,
perhaps my brain is having a little rest.
but thought it would be good just to say hi to my friends
and send my love and thanks to you all.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

the wind is blowing
i sit in my chair and listen,
the sun streams in on my sleeping dog,
the clock ticks ticks ticks,
my mind is so full
i feel so alone in all this,
i have hope that i will have my dream,
i have no one to hold my hand,
i want to talk, and get all this out,
knowing i can do this has made it harder to be me at the moment,
what am i trying to say
i am so different from who i was a few months ago,
but i want to be out of this dreadfull place
i know more than ever i need this, but knowing that is so hard.
i sit in my chair and think,
i wach my dog in the sun,
he is old and will never see the new me,

well the book has come out for the threatre royal for next year
and i sat up in my seat when i saw what is on next year
The sound of music well i just have to have to but wow gosh loads of pennies

Had email saying my shoes arrived in the uk on the 11th of november
but i have still not had them , should i wait a bit longer and not worry or should i ring up someone, and who should i contact as i am feeling quite worried

Please please excuse this one but its in my head and i just have to ask!
people who loose a limb ,can still feel it
i just wonder if i will still feel my ------

How terrible is that!
have tryed all my life to get her to love me, and it just never happens
so why do i need to keep trying?
i ring two or three times a week she is alway off the phone in less than three min.
Tonight she was very critacal of me doing volantry work, she just can not see why i should do anything for nothing, i feel so frustrated, i was also going to try and tell her about my gender but it just could not happen the way she was, she is 83 and i wonder if i will ever tell her or even if i need to.

been looking at undies

on monday some one asked how much all my treatments would cost, i didnt have a clue but was just so so gratfull that they might be posible.
but on reflection ,it has made me wonder what my worth is , to me my happiness is woth anything, i have only just realised that, before i didnt think i was worth a pound!.
i do understand this needs paying for and that makes me think about how others might value me.

what a blow, just had a little walk, mowed the grass and picked up some leaves wonderfull my face is glowing ,bit puffed but had great fun throwing up leaves into the wind ,the weather can make you feel so alive.
have you any memeories of weather and how it made you feel.
and a great morning to you all
xx

i think my little piggies have a great life, mum still has not had the babbies yet but i can feel them all moving in her tummy.
just thought you might like to see part of their home

A couple was invited to a swanky Halloween party by a family friend, in which all attendees were required to wear a mask. The wife got a terrible headache and told her husband to go to the party alone, and to make sure to say hello to her family. He, being a devoted husband, protested, but she argued and said she was going to take some aspirin and go to bed and there was no need for his good time to be spoiled by not going. So he took his costume and away he went.

The wife, after sleeping soundly for about an hour, woke without pain and as it was still early, decided to go to the party. As her husband didn't know what her costume was, she thought she would have some fun by watching her husband to see how he acted when she was not with him.

So she joined the party and soon spotted her husband in his costume, cavorting around on the dance floor, dancing with every nice "chick" he could and copping a little feel here and a little kiss there. His wife went up to him and being a rather seductive babe herself, he left his new partner high and dry and devoted his time to her. She let him go as far as he wished, naturally, since he was her husband.

After more drinks he finally whispered a little proposition in her ear and she agreed, so off they went to one of the cars and had passionate intercourse in the back seat. Just before unmasking at midnight, she slipped away and went home and put the costume away and got into bed, wondering what kind of explanation he would make up for his outrageous behaviour.

She was sitting up reading when he came in, so she asked what kind of time he had. "Oh, the same old thing. You know I never have a good time when you're not there." Then she asked, "Did you dance much?"

He replied, "I'll tell you, I never even danced one dance. When I got there, I met Pete, Bill Brown and some other guys, so we went into the spare room and played poker all evening."

"You must have looked really silly wearing that costume playing poker all night!" she said with unashamed sarcasm.

"Actually, I gave my costume to your brother, apparently he had the time of his life."

only just noticed i have another orchid in flower
seems lots of things are opening up!

i can not be cuddled if i dont have my arm open.
i carnt see beauty if i dont look,
i carnt get anyware if i dont take the first step,
i wont look happy unless i feel happy,
i wont make a friend if i dont want to.
i wont have a future if i dont have a dream,

yesterday i was cuddled buy lots of people both mentaly and phyicaly,
i saw some beauty in me also,and i took steps into a more positive place,
and ido have a dream
xx

i will write more later but what i will say is yesterday went very well
there are some people out there who have shown me mega kindness and have left me feeling warm and safe,and that life is for living once more
and following your dream can bring about wonderfull discoverys along the way.

to try and build a ladder out of a dark spot, i tried to make a list
of my strength's and weaknesses
well one side was long and the other was very short!
but i was distracted from were i was heading.

but i do put myself down too much, and after waching a celeb chef doing his stuff today i know i can do so much better up infront of an audiance
many years ago i did some demo cooking ,
and its easy to forget some of our best days.
and i have writen often of those bad days but there have been highs too
and i must hold those close

i know i do this a lot, but it is how i feel today i feel sick and friegtened about tomorrow . my chest is tight and struggeled to eat anything.
feel sick with fear.
but also so want to do it

yesterday wind rain and a real storm, this morning silence, and no wind and sunshine, bit like my life

feel so tired i am off for a nap , might be back
xxx

after reading lots of quizz answers it seems sex toys are part of most ladies bottom draws.
but this puts me in a difficult place in my mind i sort of want
some pleasure. but feel i almost can not because i am not there yet
its also made me realise i want to be part of a threesome
am i a pervert
sex seems to be causing me confusion .

Customs officers seize

More than £1 million worth of counterfeit cigarettes filled with rabbit droppings instead of tobacco have been confiscated by customs officials in Spain.

The fake cigarettes - due to be sold on the black market as famous brands - were discovered after British holidaymakers in the Canary Islands smelled a rat whenever they lit up.

"They stunk. They smell just as you'd imagine burning poo to smell," said one customs official in Tenerife.

Police and customs staff arrested 12 smugglers in an undercover operation to intercept the cigarettes as they landed on a boat from China.

"They not only smell bad but the toxic chemicals they give off are pure poison," explained a customs official.

just went for a walk, and saw these sorry for the grotty picture

EXCUSE ME THREE MONTHS EARLY!

i have started baking my gingerbread for two christmas satall i do
these are a new line they are gluten free houses three inces high
and filled with sweets but i need to know how much to charge as they take lots of time and are not cheap to make
so how much should i charge i am making 50

sorry about the poor quality pictures

iwas born on the 13th my mum was born on the 13th and hers too
and it was a friday!

i am off to a hot bath, it feels like a long day, my car had to go into the garage to be fixed third time for this problem and they had to pay for their mistake, somehow they messed up the ABS braking system so they had to replace it i was told if i had had to pay it would have been a thousand pounds !!!
it has rained so much today and whilst waling back from the car i fell and skinned my knees so they are sore.
i tryed to talk to my mum on the phone and she is realy not interested in me , after two min she wants to go this is normal but it makes me feel crap.
Fizz my pregnat guinea pig is so big, she must pop soon i am quite worried if she doesent have then in the next cuple of days and they say often there is a dead one.
i am starting to make gingerbread houses to sell at a christmas market so some pics soon
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx to all of tou and happy dreams.

.. the drink ..
A girl and her boyfriend go to the pub. When it's the girl's turn to buy around, she tells him that
she's heard of a wonderful new drink he simply must try.

She returns with the usual half of lager for herself. For him, she has two glasses.
One contains a measure of Bailey's, the other lime juice.

Instructions: "OK, what you gotta do is, you gotta swig the Bailey's, hold it in your mouth,
and then drink the lime juice." He looks a bit dubious, but she's very enthusiastic so he decides to give it a go.

First the Bailey's; lovely smooth, creamy, warm feeling in the mouth.
Then he takes the lime juice.

T + 0.1 secs: The cream in the Bailey's curdles.

T + 0.3 secs: Boyfriend's face turns the color of fresh lime juice.

T + 0.6 secs: Boyfriend calms his stomach and swallows the gunge.

T + 1.5 secs: She whispers in his ear....

"It's called Blowjob revenge"

to raise some £ perhaps i could offer my services
well i am not the sreamline model i once was so thats 25% off
over forty well thats another discount of 25%
few grey hairs well thats another 25%
dont work late so thats another 15%
well 3.50 a time the is that fair?
or should i do buy one get one free?

I poped into boots today, and wanted some foundation, had been recomended to get maxfactor ,as untill i get my laser treatment i must get somthing with very good coverage, well i looked and saw the one and it was 11.99 and the nail hardener was 7.oo well i sadly could only afford one so the nail hardener won!
even a little hairband was 3.00
sorry i am having a moan , but i am like achild in a sweet shop with no purse

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1. We got off the Titanic first.

2. We can scare male bosses with mysterious gynecological disorder excuses.

3. We never ejaculate prematurely.

4. We get to flirt with systems support men who always return our calls and are nice to us when we blow up our computers.

5. When we buy a vibrator it's glamorous. When men buy a blowup doll, it's pathetic.

6. Our boyfriend's clothes make us look elfin and gorgeous. Guys look like complete idiots in ours.

7. We can be groupies. Male groupies are stalkers.

8. We can cry and get off speeding fines.

9. We've never lusted after a cartoon character or the central figure in a computer game.

10. Taxis stop for us.

11. Men die earlier, so we get to cash in on the life insurance.

12. We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.

13. Free drinks, free dinners, free moving (you get the point?).
Why Women are the Luckier Sex Part 2

14. We can hug our friend without wondering if she thinks we're gay.

15. We know the truth about whether size matters.

16. New lipstick gives us a whole new lease on life.

17. If we have sex with someone and don't call the next day, we're not the devil.

18. Condoms make no significant difference in our enjoyment of sex.

19. We can sleep our way to the top.

20. Nothing crucial can be cut off with one clean sweep.

21. It's possible to live our whole lives without ever taking a group shower.

22. No fashion faux pas we make could rival Speedos.

23. We don't have to fart to amuse ourselves.

24. If we cheat on our spouse, people assume it's because we're being emotionally neglected.

25. We never have to wonder if his orgasm was real.

26. If we forget to shave, no one has to know.

oh dear my allottment looks a mess!
i realy must try harder to get some done, but i did gather these, it makes me feel so good to come back with a bagfull.

my nails are growing ,and my hands look much better since i have started using goves when gardening, i have no idea about shape, but i am going to o and get some nail varnish
any ideas or help would be great PLEASE

hi ! i had a hot hot ot dream last night, and sadly seem to have forgotten most of it but i do remember being in a hot embrase and kissing and being caresed and having a sexy tounge in my mouth!
who was it? why should this come from the blue?
was it you?
xxxxx

sheets in the macine and nearly ready for the line ,lounge hovered, kichen widows washed, bumble brushed, three pairs of trousers ironed, and done a bit of cross stich , ready for a cupa?
xxx
and its only 7.20am

been sitting here since five am
reading your kind comments , and yes they help so much,
thank you all that have written, i feel such a need to go on, and having feedback, when you have a problem give you a much better view on were you are
and i realy know that untill i have accived the change i will not be home!
Home is were i feel i should be, it corrrecting as much as is poosible the body i inhabit.
today is i know going to be better, thats why i so long for the fist rays of light, in a way whn i get up and see 40 comments waiting for me, that was light streaming into my heart, and tears of pleasure came,thank you.
oh yes and the group last night were lovely too me, i miss them already,
and i sat with my breasts on and recieved nothing but kindness.
have a great day all of you, and a big kiss to each of you, and warm light.
xxxxxxxx

my lounge windowis full of my orchids at the mo, they go on for weeks and weeks and i seem to do realy well with them, these are nearly ten years old and flower twice a year.
xx

I am only a week away from the birth of some new guinea pigs, i have moved her in on her own into the house, but the sunshine was shinning so i put her out with the ladies today.

wish the phone would ring,
wish for a tap on the door,
silence is painfull tonight,
silence wy go away
i talk to myself do you,
i do it out loud,
wish someone would ring
wish for a tap on the door
here i sit, no tele
here i sit no music,
fifty years gone by,
were are my friends,
only shadows,memories
wish the phone would ring
wish for a tapon the door

have just spoken to somone and been told i need to keep my vol work as it will help with my gender assesment ,working and living for two years.
so i will have to re think my plans

A mouse looked through the crack in the wall to see the farmer and his wife open a package.

What food might this contain?' the mouse wondered - - - he was devastated to discover it was a mousetrap.

Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the warning:

There is a mousetrap in the house!
There is a mousetrap in the house!'

The chicken clucked and scratched, raised her head and said, 'Mr.Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to you, but it is of no consequence to me. I cannot be bothered by it.'

The mouse turned to the pig and told him,

'There is a mousetrap in the house!

'There is a mousetrap in the house!'

The pig sympathized, but said, 'I am so very sorry, Mr. Mouse, but there is nothing I can do about it but pray. Be assured you are in my prayers.'

The mouse turned to the cow and said,

'There is a mousetrap in the house!

There is a mousetrap in the house!'

The cow said, 'Wow, Mr. Mouse. I'm sorry for you, but it's no skin off my nose..'

So, the mouse returned to the house, head down and dejected, to face the farmer's mousetrap . . . alone.

That very night a sound was heard throughout the house -- like the sound of a mousetrap catching its prey.

The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught. In the darkness, she did not see it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught. The snake bit the farmer's wife.

The farmer rushed her to the hospital, and she returned home with a fever.

Everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main ingredient.

But his wife's sickness continued, so friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed them, the farmer butchered the pig.

The farmer's wife did not get well, she died.

So many people came for her funeral, the farmer had the cow slaughtered to provide enough meat for all of them.

The mouse looked upon it all from his crack in the wall with great sadness.

So, the next time you hear someone is facing a problem and think it doesn't concern you, remember ---- when one of us is threatened, we are all at risk.

We are all involved in this journey called life..

We must keep an eye out for one another and make an extra effort to encourage one another.

SEND THIS TO EVERYONE WHO HAS EVER HELPED YOU OUT

AND LET THEM KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THEY ARE .

REMEMBER. . . . . .

EACH OF US IS A VITAL THREAD IN ANOTHER PERSON'S TAPESTRY;

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One of the best things to hold onto in this world is a FRIEND!

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Her hair was up in a pony tail,
Her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
And she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees
A dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
Anxious in their seats

One by one the teacher called
A student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
A man who wasn't there.

'Where's her daddy at?'
She heard a boy call out.
'She probably doesn't have one,'
Another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
'Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day.'

The words did not offend her,
As she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.

'My Daddy couldn't be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,
And ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him.
I'm not standing here alone.

'Cause my daddy's al ways with me,
Even though we are apart
I know because he told me,
He'll forever be in my heart'
With that, her little hand reached up,
And lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.

'I love my daddy very much,
he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here,
But heaven's just too far.

You see he is a Brittish soldier
And died just this past year
When a roadside bomb hit his convoy
And taught Britians to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
it's like he never went away.'
And then she closed her eyes,
And saw him there that day.

And to her mothers amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.

'I know you're with me Daddy,'
To the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far.

just went up the road for the local papper and a chap said"your looking more like a girl every day!
i was in trousers and fleese top.
i walked home with a warm smile in my heart

i think my false boobs softened my fall !

a smashing friend sugested i do this post.
things i need foe a new life,
i have very little,i would not even have enough pants for a whole week,
i have one pr white jeans
ipr black i cardigan
i blouse
i polo top
a purple stipe top
2prs of shoes
1 lipstick
i foundation
1 brown eye liner
1 mascara
2 bras

not a lot
but what should i have as a basic

i dont want to buy a sonic tooth brush , i dont want debt help i dont want software, i dont want porn, or a date well perhaps .recent posts has become a joke
sorry i am getting miffed
xx

i am bord and just dont know what to write about.

hell of a shock, i just sliped and toppeled down the stairs from top to bottom
i seem to roll and i think i am ok but feel quite shaken, i expext i might have a bit of black and blue, i can not believe i am ok and got away with it, especialy with my bones being as they are. some one was looking after me for all 15

i am very unhappy with the changes you have made, so many of the things you have removed made this place special.
and the amount of spam is unacceptable
bring back the buzz bring back all that you have taken away PLEASE !!!!!!
every one please add to this

the garden is bathed in sunshine, so i am out to tidy up, get some weeding done and plant a few bulbs, but have such a headach . i also must be carfull of my nails as they are starting to look nice, i even find i have to type differently
with the pads of my fingers rather than the ends of my fingers.
my head is so full of the future

the last week or so i just not had an appitite, but today i seem to be so hungry
i had two bowls of cerial this morning ,
two sandwitches for lunch,
two apples a pear and an orange large bowl of pasta with pumkin and toamto sauce,
a fruit corner, and i just had three pieces of toast .
and i am just craving some mashed bannana with horlicks and cream on top.
is that gross?

one thing i need to do soon is officaly change my name and i have wondered about changing my surname too, and i kind offancy an ilitaration if thats what its called any ideas Ellisa E--------

well this morning i looked at my eyebrows and decieded they needed doing again, so i rang on the of chance of an appointment , and yes she fitted me in this morning and she removed more than ever and said it was as far as she was willing to go, she didnt want me to have a suprised look.
i spoke about the clinic, and she was very nice, she is going to make me up on the 16th ,so i will go dressed and made up, and hopfully with shoes too.
we spoke about the cost of all this and how much i still needed , so she asked what i had, i said four pairs of trousers, a blouse and two other tops, she said i needed bag, a watch and loads of other things, anyway to cut a long story she is gong to give me spare bits of makeup, and a watch with matching braclet.
this all so wonderfull but i am worried about the cost of all this more than anything else, i am so carefull with money , but it would be so easy to get in such a mess .

so excited about new shoes but one pair have heels and although i am very tall
i am excited ,will they make me walk in a more fem way?
who will teach me to walk.
and i feel so calm about who i am ,its amazing

life is making me smile.
just had an email from she express in the USA and one of the pairs of shoes cam back as a problem in my order they contacted me so nicly and i wrote back and now they have given me another pair of shoes that were ten dollars mor for the same price to help me, people can be nice but its so nice when a buisness shoes kindness too , thank you shoe express .
the sun is shinning, but its also raining so i might have a swim in the sea today
happy happy happy
xx

when i wrote the title home, it was not just about being home were i live, it felt like all the thought and feelings that i have feared to express,failed to get people to understand,feared my self. were just how i should be!
i am seeing her in two weeks time, and looking forwards to it, she will after seeing me a few times i think arange for me to have laser treatment for hair removal to my face,(fantastic) she was clear,kind and even offered me a room to change in if i wanted to change when i came to appointments.
so i have sort of reached a home were i will be comfortable, accepted understood
so who ever is watching over me, thank you i have tears running down my face as i write this hot tears, relief,joy and love for you lot!
xxxx

tired, bit weepy, but happy
ladie so so nice, and could not have been nicer,
felt safe, felt understood
a dubble plus to the clinic.

well i have had some porridge and some fruit.
it will take be about 50 min drive , so i will leave at 10am
hugs to you all

todays quick tip is to make cheryle coles dress from the x factor
you will need
a black sack,
two old hub caps
eight old knives and spoons
and some bostick.
and you will need an adult to help you cut the hub caps

and next i will help you make a lewy walsh out
you will need a garden gnome

well my next door neighbour has a new man ! she doesnt seem to keep them long sadly, but i was just looking out my bedroom window and there she is leaning into the car in the middle of the road having
a good bye kiss and in her nighty.
well it was up higher than her bottom leaving nothing unseen ten min later
she comes back her nightie so thin . well just a few min ago he was back and they were at it like rabbits in the back garden .and its damp and drizzely here!
so much noise too.
well the village post office was buzzing about it!!

i am so often hating myself, looking for reasons not too!
but today i was trying to think anout whats good about me?
well
i think it is my loyalty.
and then perhaps my honesty,which has got me into truble,
whats yours and why

went to check on my shoes
and it said awaiting payment, i rang my credit card company they said they had no problem with my card ,but nothing had come throught yet, i do hope ther is no problem. would it be waiting to be moday to be put through as i ordered on sat afternoon.

i realy needed to be out, the weather has been rough today so i went in my car
and parked by the sea, and had a book,a flask and the radio
and sat all day.
loads of deap thoughts, haunting me, if only pease would come

it is lashing it down, the wind is wizzzing ,wild and the trees are dancing.
well i am just about to get buttoned up and a very brief walk with bumble.
happy November every one.

i so hope i can sleep tonight
so i have had a cup of horlicks
am having a hot bath (shave my legs) still realy good from the wax.
good night friends

well jut below my garden to night they are having a big fireworks display
so i am getting all the animals inside so as they dont get stressed
so the pigs can wach the x factor
and bumble gets so upset too.
a dog got in such a state last year it ended up being put down, so sad

yes i did it two prs
from the USA
black
there was a link on an earlier post
dont know how long they will take to come, but i hope its tommorow!!

i am off to exeter on monday so i am getting a jumper so i will have my smart outfit
i have worked outwhen the visa comes i will only still owe 23 pounds
so i will cope with that.
next i need to get the rest of the makeup items i need so i reckon in two weeks i will have the basics.
then i will start to save again.
having such big feet was a real barrier and i feel i have overcome a real barrier
they even had ladies shoesup to size 17.
xxxx

i have realy started to think about makeing a new start some ware no one knows me
were i can be me with out being measured againt how i was.
but i dont want to be in a city.
it would have to be in about three months time wheni start my new life.
i strugle with gardening ,can no longer manage my allotment so i will need to move anyway sooner or later.its not my house so perhaps a ground floor flat.

sunday, monday then tuesday, 11.30
it feels close,and so wound up, think i will just get in and burst into floods of tears.
but stge one is about three monthes of talking.
then if i get through that
i have to change my name and start living for two years.

there seem to be loads does any one buy from these people?
i am fed up with spam
or maybe i could find a way of raising money to fund my shoes
sell pictures of me for ten squid each , hundred and twenty friends , 1200 pounds shoes, dress,coat hand bag
make up get in line i am busy printing!!

i am giving you a chance to admit to somthing naughty you did that you never told any one!
when i was on holiday camping put the water hose under one of the tents and left it on!
at about two in the morning!! they had been rude to the lady in the shop!
your turn

never realy bothered with them
but for a bit of fun i am going to put as many as i can an see what happens
any ideas

A man absolutely hated his wife's cat and decided to get rid of him one day by driving him 20 blocks from his home and leaving him at the park. As he arrived home, the cat was walking up the driveway.

The next day he decided to drive the cat 40 blocks away. He put the beast out and headed home. Driving back up his driveway, there was the cat!

He kept taking the cat further and further, and the cat would always beat him home. At last he decided to drive a few miles away, turn right, then left, past the bridge, then right again and another right until he reached what he thought was a safe distance from his home and left the cat there.

Hours later the man calls home to his wife: "Jen, is the cat there?"

"Yes", the wife answers, "why do you ask?"

Frustrated, the man answered, "Put the little bastard on the phone, I'm lost and need directions."

just some picture

an here is mum to be

is your personality like your faverite sex position?
just heard this on the radio
and i almost believe it!

duck for lunch
all the veg is mine,
all i need to do is find some one to share

thats how i feel at the mo
naked for all to see,
but is that good,for evey one
to unlock our souls for all to see,
all the dust and cobwebs of my life,
the smell of rotting,
but i also see a new shoot,
so with all your help ,
and cutters and shears,
lets pullout the weeds,
roots and all,
and if you have a bulb or seed to give,
to help me in this world to live,
but naked i stand,
ready to be cleansed and grafted
wait for leaves ,wait for fruit,
you are the gardeners too
help me please please do.

i seem to be in the featured blog list most days, i never stop being suprised at this.
my spelling and grammer is rough.
but i am also happy in that it makes me feel accepted.
i have never realy thought fully part of anything before, but i feel this place
had made a little room for me to feel comfy ,respected and thats so nice
so thank you blog land.

i wanted my beauticain to give me thiner eyebrow last time, but she is reluctant
i want a bit of style
what is in fasion, what would you have done what have you got
please

John invited his mother over for dinner. During the meal, his mother couldn't help noticing how beautiful John's roommate was. She had long been suspicious of a relationship between John and his roommate and this only made her more curious. Over the course of the evening, while watching the two interact, she started to wonder if there was more between John and the roommate than met the eye. Reading his mom's thoughts, John volunteered, "I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you, Julie and I are just roommates."

About a week later, Julie came to John and said, "Ever since your mother came to dinner, I've been unable to find the beautiful silver gravy ladle. You don't suppose she took it, do you?" John said, "Well, I doubt it, but I'll write her a letter just to be sure."

So he sat down and wrote:

"Dear Mother,

I'm not saying you 'did' take a gravy ladle from my house, and I'm not saying you 'did not' take a gravy ladle. But the fact remains that one has been missing ever since you were here for dinner."

Love John

Several days later, John received a letter from his mother which read:

"Dear Son,

I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with Julie, and I'm not saying that you 'do not' sleep with Julie. But the fact remains that if she was sleeping in her own bed, she would have found the gravy ladle by now.

Love, Mum

i have fallen in love
she is eight weeks old and i could not resist
my other pig is very heavey and perhaps two weeks from birth
i am calling her Fizz

i think i nearly killed willie!
i had it tucked away for two days and it went numb and i forgot about it well today looks a bit strange!
but ok