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i so hope i can sleep tonight
so i have had a cup of horlicks
am having a hot bath (shave my legs) still realy good from the wax.
good night friends

well jut below my garden to night they are having a big fireworks display
so i am getting all the animals inside so as they dont get stressed
so the pigs can wach the x factor
and bumble gets so upset too.
a dog got in such a state last year it ended up being put down, so sad

yes i did it two prs
from the USA
black
there was a link on an earlier post
dont know how long they will take to come, but i hope its tommorow!!

i am off to exeter on monday so i am getting a jumper so i will have my smart outfit
i have worked outwhen the visa comes i will only still owe 23 pounds
so i will cope with that.
next i need to get the rest of the makeup items i need so i reckon in two weeks i will have the basics.
then i will start to save again.
having such big feet was a real barrier and i feel i have overcome a real barrier
they even had ladies shoesup to size 17.
xxxx

i have realy started to think about makeing a new start some ware no one knows me
were i can be me with out being measured againt how i was.
but i dont want to be in a city.
it would have to be in about three months time wheni start my new life.
i strugle with gardening ,can no longer manage my allotment so i will need to move anyway sooner or later.its not my house so perhaps a ground floor flat.

sunday, monday then tuesday, 11.30
it feels close,and so wound up, think i will just get in and burst into floods of tears.
but stge one is about three monthes of talking.
then if i get through that
i have to change my name and start living for two years.

there seem to be loads does any one buy from these people?
i am fed up with spam
or maybe i could find a way of raising money to fund my shoes
sell pictures of me for ten squid each , hundred and twenty friends , 1200 pounds shoes, dress,coat hand bag
make up get in line i am busy printing!!

i am giving you a chance to admit to somthing naughty you did that you never told any one!
when i was on holiday camping put the water hose under one of the tents and left it on!
at about two in the morning!! they had been rude to the lady in the shop!
your turn

never realy bothered with them
but for a bit of fun i am going to put as many as i can an see what happens
any ideas

A man absolutely hated his wife's cat and decided to get rid of him one day by driving him 20 blocks from his home and leaving him at the park. As he arrived home, the cat was walking up the driveway.

The next day he decided to drive the cat 40 blocks away. He put the beast out and headed home. Driving back up his driveway, there was the cat!

He kept taking the cat further and further, and the cat would always beat him home. At last he decided to drive a few miles away, turn right, then left, past the bridge, then right again and another right until he reached what he thought was a safe distance from his home and left the cat there.

Hours later the man calls home to his wife: "Jen, is the cat there?"

"Yes", the wife answers, "why do you ask?"

Frustrated, the man answered, "Put the little bastard on the phone, I'm lost and need directions."

just some picture

an here is mum to be

is your personality like your faverite sex position?
just heard this on the radio
and i almost believe it!

duck for lunch
all the veg is mine,
all i need to do is find some one to share

thats how i feel at the mo
naked for all to see,
but is that good,for evey one
to unlock our souls for all to see,
all the dust and cobwebs of my life,
the smell of rotting,
but i also see a new shoot,
so with all your help ,
and cutters and shears,
lets pullout the weeds,
roots and all,
and if you have a bulb or seed to give,
to help me in this world to live,
but naked i stand,
ready to be cleansed and grafted
wait for leaves ,wait for fruit,
you are the gardeners too
help me please please do.

i seem to be in the featured blog list most days, i never stop being suprised at this.
my spelling and grammer is rough.
but i am also happy in that it makes me feel accepted.
i have never realy thought fully part of anything before, but i feel this place
had made a little room for me to feel comfy ,respected and thats so nice
so thank you blog land.

i wanted my beauticain to give me thiner eyebrow last time, but she is reluctant
i want a bit of style
what is in fasion, what would you have done what have you got
please

John invited his mother over for dinner. During the meal, his mother couldn't help noticing how beautiful John's roommate was. She had long been suspicious of a relationship between John and his roommate and this only made her more curious. Over the course of the evening, while watching the two interact, she started to wonder if there was more between John and the roommate than met the eye. Reading his mom's thoughts, John volunteered, "I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you, Julie and I are just roommates."

About a week later, Julie came to John and said, "Ever since your mother came to dinner, I've been unable to find the beautiful silver gravy ladle. You don't suppose she took it, do you?" John said, "Well, I doubt it, but I'll write her a letter just to be sure."

So he sat down and wrote:

"Dear Mother,

I'm not saying you 'did' take a gravy ladle from my house, and I'm not saying you 'did not' take a gravy ladle. But the fact remains that one has been missing ever since you were here for dinner."

Love John

Several days later, John received a letter from his mother which read:

"Dear Son,

I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with Julie, and I'm not saying that you 'do not' sleep with Julie. But the fact remains that if she was sleeping in her own bed, she would have found the gravy ladle by now.

Love, Mum

i have fallen in love
she is eight weeks old and i could not resist
my other pig is very heavey and perhaps two weeks from birth
i am calling her Fizz

i think i nearly killed willie!
i had it tucked away for two days and it went numb and i forgot about it well today looks a bit strange!
but ok

how much would a hair cut cost ?
Please
i think i need to start getting a little shape in it.

Three nights almost unable to sleep,
Tuesday is getting closer,
sitting on the sofa since 2am it now five thirty.
looked at shoes again , found some in US 120 dollars inc shipping thats about 80 pounds but if i order 2 prs it work out about 60 pounds each.
i am going to get a top on monday so looking forwards to that .
but in honesty real honesty am fighting to keep my head up.
this is so hard on your own, i know you are all wonderfull , but you are not here
looking into my eyes, able to put your arms around me.
gosh what a wimp i must sound sorry.

i wrote to check on some vol work with social workers,
i said about my gender , but it now seems i might not be needed this year!!!!
and i thought they played the political correct card !!

somtimes i realise it me!

music can lift my heart
art can raise me too
and a good story
a kind joke
but a smile that is great
and a hug ,realy felt
but some one who listens with their ears open is a gift

well i am in love

so good being outside
nature is so wonderfull
xx

line full of washing
blowing in the light
if any one sees my nikers
they migh have a fright,
sheets will feel all fresh and nice
a sparrow is sat on the line
gently swinging and listening to my ryme.

i have met a friend ,
i have so enjoyed meeting somone who had held my hand , been there for me when i have felt so terrible, and made me laugh so loud, and made me see sunshine just when i needed it most
i had a lovely time,
thank you ,
husband so kind and the blonde yes she is a credit to
Brokendownangel Thank you
xxxxx

well i sprung out of bed , my little dog looked at me and said can i have a bit longer ,so he is on his bed mat on my bed still resting.
its all grey outside, but i am of to exeter to see brokendownangle, i am so looking forwards to it ,and its my first meet so i have no idea how i will get on.
i have put some more bids on at ebay so i hope i dont loose these.
then i am doing my course tonight in exeter. so i want to try and look nice,
i am going to try and be brave and ask for my eyes to be done at boots but scared

better polish my shoes, and press my slacks wonder is she will like me, she will see this giant and she and her husband will make a run for the door!!
.

i have had great weather today, but its been the first day i have fely cold and needed a coat, i went out with no idea were i was going, somhow i ended up at a miniture pony centre, i felt i needed people , but i didnt stop long, i ended up in princetown home of the famouse dartmoor prison , i have been inside many times prison visiting and some years ago working with sex offenders.
sat on a bench i found my self crying ,an old lady cam and sat with me, and she put her arm around me, a total stranger, and asked if i would like a cupa, we went to her cottage she made a cupa she chatted away and i felt better, some people are so kind.

somthing for every one i hope

great day out side, so picnic packed and off up on the moors
feel realy stressed with my gender today it all feels so painfull
so home made malt loaf coffee and a pck of crisps and a bannana
you must be fed up with me getting like this
deleat me if you want

looking in the windows today i saw so much black , yes i have a pair of black slacks but were is all the colour ?
and if it wasnt balck it was grey oh gosh .
can you feel happy in black and grey
????

gosh i feel strange, and i just read in the medical book about period pains
and dont laugh i feel them, my tummy feels bloated my breats also are very tender
and i have a hot water bottle under my dressing gown.
oh gosh what next

need to get out
so i am going window shopping , as i am a bit skint at the mo,
so i have made a flask of hot soup
and a crispy bacon and chicken sanwich
and i am going to mix with the world
getting excitedabout seeing brokendown angel in exeter on monday too
xxxxx

well i had a go on ebay yesterday
seems a bit harder than it looked i bid on four things and lost all four
my last bid was only ten min before finish and still someone niped in.
and a dress yes i nearly bid for a black long tall sally dress went for two pounds and i thought it would go for loads more so i messed up.
any advice please.

come see the lovely mist
come and enjoy loads of drizzel
get all wet and damp

but i am tucked up with hot tea and buttered toast and skin all glowing from a seven oclock swim in the thrashing sea, then my warm towl wraped around a hot water bottle in my cool box ,into the car, a big lick from bumble and home.
its horrid out there, but they all flock down for half term.
but me !!cruchy hot butterd toast a dog on my lap
yum yum

climbing up all alone,
the day past,
tired and lonly i start to climb,
the weight of worry heavey,
climb i must but each step i feel a little more lonly,
the house silent,
how i hate that! at this moment,
near the top i look back down into the empty dark hall,
i am empty, i wish i had a hand to hold,
well i dog is waiting,
his pillow on the floor,
at the side of this lonly bed,
night swallow me,
close around and let me dream ,
that all i have dreams dreams dreams

A man walks into a pet shop and says to the owner. "Ok I want to buy a pet, but I don't want a boring normal pet, no cats, or dogs or budgies I want something different." The pet shop owner informs him that he has a talking centipede. "really?" Says the man "How much?" The owner informs him that the talking centipede is £50. Happy with the unusual offering the man pays the money and takes his new pet home.

On getting home he lays the match box with the centipede in it on the table, opens it and says "Hello mr centipede, fancy going to the pub for a few drinks?" The centipede says nothing. Figuring it must be tired from the journey he decides to leave it for an hour and try again later.

An hour later he opens the match box and says "Hello mr centipede, fancy going to the pub for a few drinks?" The centipede again says nothing. Starting to get suspicious the man decides he will give it one more hour, and if the centipede doesn't talk he will take it back to the shop for a refund.

An hour later the man opens the match box and says "Hello mr centipede, fancy going to the pub for a few drinks?" The centipede says "I heard you the first time you moron! I'm putting my shoes on!"

If quitters never win and winners never quit, what fool came up with, "Quit while your ahead"?!

this might sound silly but i raly want a long bob
but if i have a long bob would it be long enough to have as a pony tail or up too.

i realy think i want to move, to make a fresh start
had this thought about becoming a ladies compaion in return for a roof and help to become a femail i would help with the house,cook and be a wonderfull friend
.

I wonder if we can see into the future, i have to say somtimes i feel i have,
i can somtimes look into somones eyes and feel i can see inside and thought come.
but this morning i felt somthing bad on a global scale ,thousands homless
deasease, and death shock .
and it felt like it would be soon.
or am i just a little more mad than yesterday

you frame my world.
you light my life,
you bring the day
and hold the night
so different from day to day
angry, grey,and full of promise,
i wish i could fly up into the fluffy golden clouds,
far away from all the crowds
see the sun upon my wings,
feel the moon pull and hold me,
but i just stand and look ,
and thank creation for your beauty
never shall i stop loving you,
you please, you worry, and bring fear,or peace
but i stand and thank you and wonder at all you do.

just typed long tall sally into ebay and wow
loads of goodies wow all i need is some dosh and the mail to get back to work
yip eeeeeeh
xx

good morning,
sit down you have time to have a little breakfast with me,
what would you like
tea or coffee?
ooh you do look nice

should he be allowed to go on question time?

A Woman was out golfing one day when she hit the ball into the woods. She went into the woods to look for it and found a frog in a trap. The frog said to her, “If you release me from this trap, I will grant you three wishes.”

The woman freed the frog, and the frog said, “Thank you, but I failed to mention that there was a condition to your wishes. Whatever you wish for, your husband will get times ten!”

The woman said, “That’s okay.” For her first wish, she wanted to be the most beautiful woman in the world. The frog warned her, “You do realize that this wish will also make your husband the most handsome man in the world, an Adonis to whom women will flock.” The woman replied, “That’s okay, because I will be the most beautiful Woman and he will have eyes only for me.”

So, KAZAM-she’s the most beautiful Woman in the world!

For her second wish, she wanted to be the richest woman in the world. The frog said, “That will make your husband the richest man in the world. And he will be ten times richer than you.” The woman said, “That’s okay, because what’s mine is his and what’s his is mine.”

So, KAZAM-she’s the richest woman in the world!

The frog then inquired about her third wish, and she answered, “I’d like a mild heart attack.”

Moral of the story: Women are clever. Don’t mess with them.

i went i nto boots today and was hoping to be brave and get some blusher and talk to some one but chickened out.
but i did see false eye lashes wow !! but false toe nails carnt be !!can it !!does any one wear them ??????
but who am i to talk false boobs false bottom false hips gosh !!!!

yesterday so good , lots of life ,happy
today i took the car to torbay for a service ,only neeeded a wiper blade
but come home and feel weepy and thinking so much about love.
i almost crave casual sex ,i would not, but i want to be needed, i want to have someone to focus my life around, to cook ,build a nest and feel submissive in a loving way to also, but for the moment i am cuddeling my dog , and am looking at the long tall sally book dreaming about having money and getting lots of lovely things.
but i wouls so love a good snog !!

i am so tired, i have had a great day, i have enjoyed writing sharing and feeling the joy of frinship, the wisdom of others, and felt others pain.
good nigh and thank you sleep well , i have to take the car for its service tommorow so keep your fingers crossed they dont find any thing wrong other wise i might have to have sex with the whole garage crew.
xxx

sorry this happened a few days ago, but i didnt feel i could post it
i was in dartmouth the other day and looking in the oxfam window and i couldnt believe my eyes ,my jaw droped !! there in the window was the biggest but plug i have ever seen !!
i went in very nervusly and said to the lady behind the counter i dont think you should have that thing in the window ,she said it was ok cos she had found it and had been using it to darn her stockings , i tryed to expalin but could not get her to understand.
i must go back and see if its still there should i buy it just to get it out the window

just been and got my fresh ! veg
and saw this little fella

my shopping bag

Have just been to the postoffice to collect my pennies then pay them back in water bill and rent, 14.20 left.
a mother was in the shop with her small child , the child was looking at the pictures on the magazines and there were three with topless ladies on
the child was looking at them ,hands in pockets, then to all the shop she said
i think i want small boobs !! how do they button ther shirts with all that!!

if only i could,
feel somones smile,
if only i could,
be touched,
if only i could,
someone found me special,
if only i could ,
walk hand in hand,
if only i could,
rest my head on a chest,
if only i could,
feel the flush of excitment,
if only i could ,
want to surrender to someone,
if only i could ,
but will i.

well today i have a empty day,
so i can do a little gardening ,i need to plant all my garlic
i need to collect in my last pick of strawberrys ,will cut of all the buds to let them have a rest.
and i am going to practice my makeup a little, so wish i had some one with me to play with.
well hope you are ok and all have a gooooood day
xxxx

Billy and Pa' were walking in the woods when they came across a sign saying, "Tree Fellers wanted".

Billy said, "Ye know Pa', it's a shame Paddy isn't here. We could have gotten the job".

----- ----- -----

A man is driving along in the Irish countryside, when he comes to a petrol station, since he's in need of petrol, the man decides to stop.
He says to the attendant at the station, "Fill it up, will you?".

The man says "Sorry - we're right out of petrol."

So the man considers, and says "Well, I'm a bit low on oil, would you mind topping that up?"

And the attendant responds "Sorry, but no oil either."

The man thinks, and asks the attendant to wash his windscreen, to which he gets the by-now predictable response that he can't do that.

The man at this point is fairly mad, so he asks the attendant, "Just what kind of petrol station is this ?"

The attendant then looks both ways, and very carefully whispers to the man "To tell you the truth, this is just an IRA front."

The man then says "Well, in that case, you can blow up the tires!"

This 26 page ebook contains 75 of the best Irish jokes you'll find anywhere. You'll laugh so hard you'll blow Guinness out your nose.

sorry i have not been replying to the cooments on my blog but yet again
i have been feeling rotten.
but i am up and will start to try and catch up.
but one thing today ! is every time i have fallen asleep i have seen a rainbow in my dream and i am always kneeling naked on the edge of the beach looking up at the moon with the sea crashing in on my knees and knowing i must be brave and not move, strange i had this several times maybe more always the same.
i als went into long tall sally again and got a great pr of trousers and polo type top
and i will see if i can get somthing to go on top next week if i still have any pennys
.

well i i have put my false bum on and hips, bra.
it feels a bit like a comfort blanket, so if they do a strip search they might find a few suprises and i might have some explaning to do.
not back again till late tonight so see you all on tuesday
xx

well i woke at five left by 5.30 arrived at the unit i was visiting by 6.30. left by 7am and home by 8.30
done my write up and emailed it in . feel tired the lady i wasment to be working with was not there so i had to go on my own.
well at eleven i must go and do the whole thing again

this must be the most boring post i have ever written sorry
.
it colder today look like its going to rain so i am off to pick some strawberrys , yes they just keep comming.
tommorow i am going for a test drive of my new car so scared
thursday my car is in for a service what an exciting week !!!
ooh my hair is driving me mad it not quite long enough to tie up yet and i feel it looka a real mess i have a hair band in at home but wont were it out.
love to you all ,and i mean it too
xxxxx

wow i have had flu, normaly i just carry on but this was a beast!
sorry if i have not been around sinse friday ,and not replyed tp all you kind and loving coments.
and somhow i have to work tommorow , i have to be in dawlish by 6.30 am for a 7.00 handover then again at 12 the in exeter from 5pm till ten then home at 11pm how i will do it who knows but somhow i must.
so in a min i am going to have an ice lolly then nighty on and off up the apples and pears ,
hope i have not missed any thing
xxxx

I am home, safe
and not much to report, so washing machine on, hot bath run and used!
and have just started on the post !
first one was ----------- The gender clinic
with an appointment for early November
silly me just knent on the floor in tears.
silly me suddenly felt so scared.
will write more later but have loads to do
so sending my little bit of love to each of you
xx

excuse the weight watchers picture

six inches from him , sea gulls dont like getting close


i can almost see fairys and elves

hey i think i am back !

just a few clicks
loads of memories

well please dont laugh!
but how do i get a bigger bottom, i realy need some more shape down there.
and i wander if they ever get to giving me pills if it will change
but i realy would like to be curvey!
come on every one my bottom needs you!!!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

ooh and my legs are so nice since they have been waxed and every were else i am still all smooooooooooooooth.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

want to look at laser treatment for my face but bet i will never be able to afford it

have a good day its sunny here so i am going shopping
xxxx

just wanted to say Thank you.
and send you all a big X
i am feeling a bit better, i guess my mind is like a big mixing pot
and it is being recreated and that prosese is painfull somtimes.
but THANK YOU.x

This last week has been very hard, i have spent a lot of time thinking about me, what i am what i feel i am, what i want to be
what others want me to be,
I have always used this place to say it how it is, and some might think that is easy but ,i have somtimes found it almost imposible.
and on monday i nearly pressed the deleat button on my blog,
over the day my finger hovered over the enter botton ,with the curser over the little red cross symble.
I have been reading the imformation sheet on the net about the newton abbot gender clinic.
and what they require .
i have been thinking about me, my age , the fact i realy dont want to ever sleep with another man,that will not fit in will it.
my needing sticks somtimes, my size.
i so want this, i dont mind having to change my name, i dont mind living as a woman for two years,
i just wish i was not on my bloody own,
sorry about swaring, i am in a stupid crying state again.
i dont think i can do it i realy carnt.
i dont have a dr i can talk to ,sorry i must go

I have let you see, whats inside of me,
honesty hurts ,feelings matter,
when i am down my thoughts scatter,
shake it off ,for a while.
but its back in a mile,
pull it out for all to see,
all my personal missery,
friends respond,
with some love,
but over the internet there hand feels like its in a glove,
touch my breast , feel my heart,
see how i feel torn apart,
i ask you to cry with me,
hold my hand and share some tea,
when like this the world feels so big
and i a mere shriveled twig,
a foot ,ready and poised to crush,
but insead a hand reaches down,
and pickes me up ,and puts me to some good.

headpowndingthoughtscreamingturnngtossingcryingbawlingsobingsadmiserablefedupwhydoihavetobelikethisscumfeeblepainachingtiredlonlytoomanyquestionsamideludedmadsillystupidyesyesyes

i lie wishing for sleep,
the clock never sleeps,
hours pass,seeming like days,
sounds become louder,
worries get bigger,
a single tear,
so much fear,
want you near.

I lay on the floor of a wigwam on soft fur, the smoke filled the space, chanting was all around outside, i was undressed and my clothes burnt ,the heat of the room made me sweat ,my skin was glowing ,i was beaten gently with some sort of plants ,by two women i had claws pushed into one of my breasts and i was lifted high up, and as i looked down i felt no fear.
then i was floating, then i was in a roon with a woman very well dressed and i was serving her, she smiled at me and thanked me and told me to kneel
i felt such love , peace but i also knew that that i belonged to her.
then i realised i was awake but i could hear her call me.

this is how i am at the moment dark and deep.

coulnt garden so back to taking pictures
x

ITs rained most of the night.
we realy have needed it my garden is so dry ,and although i have four big waterbuts three are empty so we do need it,
But i want to be outside so on with the waterproofs in a min and i will sit in the grass on the allotment and weed for a few hours.
i feel very vunrable at the moment , i am not depressed but i somehow i feel like i want to be taken care off ,loved and led for a while.
but sadly thats not my real world.

Three men were trekking through the desert and came across a magician. The magician was standing at the top of a slide. The magician than said, ''You may each go down the slide, asking for a drink. When you reach the bottom of the slide you shall land a a huge glass of that drink.

The first man went down yelling, ''Beerrr!!!'' Plop! He landed in a glass of beer.

The second guy went down the slide yelling,''lemonadeee!!!'' Plop! He landed in a glass of lemonade.

The third guy went down the slide yelling ''wheeeeeeeee!!!'''

As you know i dont work, i do Vol work.
but i realy for some reason i hate the weekends, but i dont understand why
its like i hate christmas, easter, or when every one else is having fun i feel out of it.
dont get me wrong i want people to have fun , perhaps i dont fit or somthing.

i needed to get out so today i went to paint to China blue and painted a pot,
it will be ready next sunday , but i tryed to copy somthing and i never do that , result not happy and proberly a wast of money.

Then to Dartinton to listen to some live music

then home to hot crumpets ,sponge caKE
AND MULLED CIDER
HOW ABOUT YOU.XXXX

a whole day in frot of me and dont kow wat to do,
my legs are not working well at all so that might have some relivance on what i do.

How can i sudenly go from relaxed infront of xfactor to sunenly feelin a hot flush and carving hot and steamy sex !!!
come on get in line !!

just though i would see what you think
have a look a my best friend please
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdSuTgH7fgU

just a quick painting for you

FANTASTIC i have just come back from a good blow

yesterday was sunny and warm, a wonderfull late summers day, today quite different, i drove down to the beach last night and parked just before midnight.
The sky still and bright, the moon looking slightly blue
i have a small pop up tent and put it up about ten metres above the high tide line. a sleeping mat and my old bag and i was ready, but some how sleep would not come, and as the night moved on it got very cold, i sat and listened to the sounds of night, the gentle braking of the waves a fox calling acar or two passed in the distance, then i sunenly felt like i wanted to swim so on with the wetsuit not so easy in the dark and carfully down the beach and into the sea, it felt warm and i realy enjoyed it but had to be carfull.
then back to the tent and fell straight to sleeo till seven then home for a hot bowl of porridge.
today is so grey down to only 8 degrees and am staying in .
love to you all

i have put a tune to it
you should not laugh at your self but i have played it again and again
any ideas for another funny one please

By the time a Marine pulled into a little town, every hotel room was taken.

"You've got to have a room somewhere," he pleaded. "Or just a bed, I don't care where."

"Well, I do have a double room with one occupant - an Air Force guy," admitted the manager, "and he might be glad to split the cost. But to tell you the truth, he snores so loudly that people in adjoining rooms have complained in the past. I'm not sure it'd be worth it to you."

"No problem," the tired Marine assured him. "I'll take it."

The next morning the Marine came down to breakfast bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. "How'd you sleep?" asked the manager.

"Never better."

The manager was impressed. "No problem with the other guy snoring, then?"

"Nope, I shut him up in no time" said the Marine.

"How'd you manage that?" asked the manager.

"He was already in bed, snoring away, when I came in the room," the Marine" explained.

"I went over, gave him a kiss on the cheek, said, 'Goodnight, beautiful,' and he sat up all night watching me."

i was going up to the post office to get some milk,
and a chap had just gone in to get a eve papper about forty years old and droped down dead , realy sad ,one min here next gone.
make you think , feel quite shaken, didnt know him , but so young.

i was waching this and thought i must share it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQ2ZYLoE55U
hope you all have a great weekend

they often like to show thir builders bum,
when they are thinking they bite their thumb
after marridge they grow their tum,
a few years later ,sex goes numb,
when in the wronge they play it dumb,
and all thats left of the cake is a single crumb,
can you add a few lines?

wonder were i left it?
what was i doing?
why did i put that there!
he said somthing i didnt hear but i will smile and nod!
what did i just do?
where was i yesterday!
i have had a day just like that ,think i am loosing it if only i could remember what .

CAN YOU HEAR ME
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXKdEOnSl78

wondered what to write doday
any ideas's
would you like a web cam with ot sound
would you like some answers to questions
what about me being an orfull aguny aunt
go on start me off, let this post go with the flow
xx

i had a funny tummy today, and felt a bit sicky, but my temp is up to 100 so i will say good night and have a cold shower and climb the apples and pears, up to my little nest, thanks for all the nice comments re the vidio, i am still reading them in my head, and it feels nice,
a thought came into my head , that when i stand naked infront of the doctor at the gender clinic ,i will have you all in my breast right next to my heart.
bless the lot of you
xxxxxxxxx

well My motability has come through with back date!!
i can order my car from the 5th for del on jan 5th
i have also been accepted as a hospital driver, i needed to get out so have said yes, to mornings 3days a week.
but i need a biger car, so do i choose a renult grand scienic or a citron grand picasso i will have enough money for the deposit, and one does 53 the other does 55 but is smaller.
i feel horrid having a new car ,when so many struggle, so sorry
it almost feels unreal, i had to ring them up this morning to check it was all correct, they even told me i could have aplyed three years ago, but they have given me five month back date,
i just need to find the courage to go and do it and also choose the colour
i quite like gold .
i still feel so guilty, what will people think.

Only in America ........do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

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Only in America.....do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.

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Only in America.....do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

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Only in America......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.

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Only in America.......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.

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Only in America.....do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.

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EVER WONDER ...

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens
our skin?

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Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

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Why don't you ever see the headline 'Psychic Wins Lottery'?

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Why is 'abbreviated' such a long word?

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Why is it that doctors call what they do 'practice'?

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Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?

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Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

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Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

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Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

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Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

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Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

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You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?!

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Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

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Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

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If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

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If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?