to try and build a ladder out of a dark spot, i tried to make a list
of my strength's and weaknesses
well one side was long and the other was very short!
but i was distracted from were i was heading.

but i do put myself down too much, and after waching a celeb chef doing his stuff today i know i can do so much better up infront of an audiance
many years ago i did some demo cooking ,
and its easy to forget some of our best days.
and i have writen often of those bad days but there have been highs too
and i must hold those close